“Disbelief loves for us to become spiritual victims of our circumstances. It knows that if it can hold us hostage, the next time our faith is stretched, doubt will appear. And if doubt wins, unbelief is soon to follow. And then? It’s often the point of no return.”- Nicki Koziarz
My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, from the words of my groaning? O my God, I cry by day, but you do not answer, and by night, but find no rest.”- Psalm 22:1-2 (ESV)
In Chapter 3 (“Walk the Line, Barefoot”) of Flooded, Nicki Koziarz observes that each of us finds a very specific time in our lives where we realize one thing. Just how much we don’t believe in ourselves. As a result, we often feel like we’re coming from a place of defeat.
Nor necessarily the kind of defeat that comes from quitting. Rather, the kind of defeat that comes despite everything you did right. Because the result fails to make sense, it messes with you.
Consequently, this kind of defeat changes you. And unless you allow it to sit with you instead of sweeping it under the rug, this kind of defeat defines you.
Therefore, Nicki underscores, we need someone to come alongside us and tell us that God’s able to handle our disbelief. That He will help us to believe again. Because, the author explains:
“Each of us has a Why, God? that needs to be dealt with. We tell God our why that is in the way of walking with Him. This why-wedge between you two, it needs to be gone.”
This is hard soul-work. Work that won’t make the enemy happy. And you may find yourself more frustrated than faithful right now. And, that’s okay. Just keep turning the pages . . .”
Today’s question: When have you or others you know felt like spiritual victims of your circumstances? Please share.
Tomorrow’s blog: “Getting a grip – walk the line”